*I would like to introduce to you Jesus Christ*

If I had the pleasure on introducing Jesus Christ, this is how it will go.....It is my honor and pleasure to introduce to you Jesus Christ. Many may know Him and some may not. He has over a million names but there is only one Jesus Christ. Jesus’ birth is miraculous because He was born by a virgin. He was resurrected and ascended to heaven. Once everyone heard news about baby Jesus all the townspeople wanted to see the baby. Gifts were brought to His feet and stories were told how one day He will lead the nation and inspire others. Through His years He has done no wrong and He lived a Christian life. For those that know Him knows He is a healer, a nurturer, a provider, savior, and motivator. He healed the sick, raised the dead, cast out devils, delivered a prostitute, and cured a crippled man. Jesus also healed every sickness and every disease among the people. He also motivates young and old to prioritize their lives. He has molded men to recognize that these last and evil days are coming to an end and if we wait too long, we might not go with Him. He has instilled independence in people to stop worrying about the pity things in life but to make sure that He is number one.

He was whipped constantly, stone by the townspeople, and had stakes pierced in His hands and ankles. Through all his trials and tribulations, that He endured, never once did He cry out for pain or question why are these things happening to Him? This Man performed many miracles for those around Him and not. He allowed 5,000 men and their families to eat with 2 fish and 5 loaves of bread, walked on top of water, and calmed a stormy sea while He was in the boat with His disciples. While Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego were being burned alive, Jesus miraculously kept them alive through the fiery furnace. Jesus Christ also persuades others to do His good deeds. He persuaded Moses to lead his Hebrew people out of slavery and persuaded Lot to rescue his family out of a city that was going to be destroyed.

I am introducing this Man because He is here to take His people back with Him. He is here to capture the many souls that followed Him, worshiped Him, gave Him praise at all times, and taught His teachings. Jesus Christ wants to take His people to a place where the streets are gold; there is nothing but praise and worship for the Lord, and the days never turn into night. Jesus is here to reclaim His position and to have the many angels do His work. You should listen to what He has to say because He wants to direct your path. He wants to bring you with Him and take you to a place where you won’t have to worry about paying bills, death, sorrow, diseases, and/or struggles.

This Man has changed my life tremendously. He has changed my appearance on life and life afterwards. This Man has shielded me from all hurt, harm, and danger. He has kept me near the cross. He has cured my auntie, saved my cousin, and blessed my uncle. He blocked racing cars from hitting me, shielded my $20 from others so that I can find it, and blessed me with this amazing scholarship at Fayetteville State University. He has delivered my friend from drugs and stopped a speeding bullet from hitting another one of my friends. He has allowed people to walk after coming from a bad car accident and He wants to take you with Him. Whatever He has to say I can reassure you, you will be satisfied and would want to hop aboard His train. You will leave with tears in your eyes and happiness in your heart. He will raise your spirits reassuring you that everything will be all right. So without further ado, I introduce to you Jesus Christ.

*That Man*

That Man has me in an ecstasy train
That Man has over a million names
That Man never hurts me or calls me out my name
That Man is my man and yours; it’s one in the same
That Man doesn’t cheat on me or bruise my body
That Man can be good to you too just try Him
That Man is sexay, generous, kind, and funny all packed into one
That Man is a man that I want my men to be like
That Man sets an example and never loses a fight
That Man can teach these men in the world how to be A MAN
That Man makes me cry when I’m the happiest woman on the earth

My tears for this Man is not tears of sorrow
That Man makes me produce tears of joy and laughter about tomorrow
That Man pays my bills, buy me anything I want and I don’t have to do anything in return
That Man recognizes a true beauty in a person and not just looking on what He yearns
That Man never criticizes me or demand unrealistic things
That Man saves, heals, and nurtures all and never clings
That Man is Jesus Christ, the healer of all things, creator of many, known by only select few
Jesus Christ can do the things I said for you too
Don’t know him, well it’s not too late search, seek, ask and find this Man
This Man only comes during a season and once that time comes you CAN NOT get THIS Man

*I Need Closure*

This is to MY FIRST LOVE

The one that I gave my heart to and in return got bit by the devil’s bug

This is not to put your business out there or to tear you down

You did that to me too many times, I can’t see you frown

Hopefully after this I get the closure that I need

Because right now I’m going in circles like a pit-bull ready to feed

Our time together was not a bad thing

We shared moments, firsts, and everything in between

Laughter, cries everything that comes with it

But we had to say goodbye and it’s hard to stick to it

I LOVE YOU unconditionally don’t worry about that

We did some messed up things to each other and that’s a fact

What happened in DC hurts me to this day

“What happens in DC stays in DC” is what some says

We both know that the statement is a lie

What’s done in the dark MUST come bright

You tore me up about that and you were in the right

Until I found out 3 MONTHS LATER that what I began you already start

That’s some grimy behind stuff right there; look at me trying not to cuss

To think I can confide in a friend to later find out HE PUT YOU UP TO THIS, cuz

When you’re dealing with a person that only looks out for themselves

You’re bound to have misery, troubles, and demons looking like elves

But that is why you live, learn, and progress

But why did I have to have this BIG test?

Things were going fine until I found out you had another after she

Well I got my revenge and I got it TIMES THREE

But tit for tat, an eye for an eye does not ease the pain

It marinates the sore for a little while until your words stain

You think all these thoughts about me and still have no clue

Well I’m not the same girl you met, CAN’T YOU TELL I GREW?

You feel that I lost my emotions; YOU think

I hide my tears under my REPETITIVE blinks

But I’m NO LONGER crying, I’m NO LONGER sighing

Because I know “THAT MAN” is out there coming

My outlook on guys is SOOOO much different then when we first met

Thanks to you I freaking hate guys and have no use for them until I NEED SOMETHING or get upset

Guys are like slobbering 4 legged dogs with the pink thing sticking out

They think to their advantage and disregard the feelings of a gentle woman without a doubt

They are only good for ONE thing and MOST can’t do that right

Some try and fail, some succeed out of spite

Don’t get me confused I WILL NEVER TURN GAY

Because no matter what I think about guys I LOVE them MORE than a queer any day

After this maybe we can truly be friends and let the past BE THE PAST

I just know that if we tried it again IT WON’T LAST

We been through a lot between the time we were together and til now

I reminisce and ask myself HOW?

To leave on this note and to tell you how I feel

I LOVE YOU “Kobe Jr.” I never stopped and WILL NEVER stop and that’s real.

*For the Love of Money*

Money is not the root of all evil
For the love of money is
Loving money will turn friends into enemies
Money will make people loose their memories
Loving money is a dangerous tool that is unavoidable
People steal, kill, and destroy and that’s inevitable

People sell their souls for a little piece of change
So much money will make a person forget their name
People will rob for money if they can’t pay the bill
How much are you willing to do for a mil
Yes, money is needed to survive in this world
But not the price for a little boy or a girl

Money makes the world go round
Because of money, my dead friend was found
You can get that new house or car with a few pounds
You can’t get a life back, love, or even family rounds
Stop loving money so much only evil can come of that
Your old friends and enemies will want you back

Money can make people hit an old lady
Money can make people go crazy
Money has different names down to currency
Money will make you be on the next train in a hurry
Money can make snitches tell
For the love of money can make people go to hell

*Get Your Mind Right*

The marvelous things He done
Inspired Moses to save those people under the sun
Had only 20 loaves of bread and fed the mouths of a hundred
Jesus let the blind see, the cripple walk, and went were he was wanted
He saved Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego from the fire
David danced so hard he never got tired

We need our minds on the works of Christ
Not these demons with money getting children enticed
It’s sad to see a 4 year old spit a Ludacris song
And do not know his right from wrong
Parents are influencing their children with hip-hop and rap
Exposing them to violence and seeing there momma get slap

When we get our mind rights on the true purpose of living
We’ll recognize that our life is just beginning
I wanna be able to pass the pearly gates
I want to know my true destine, my true fate
I want to hear job well done
I want to be acquainted with the Son

It takes a major tragedy for people to recognize the Lord
Jesus’ foot was washed by a loose whore
People giving their lives and taking others
Not respecting their sister or their brothers
Jesus is coming soon, sooner then we think
He can come so fast we couldn’t even blink

When that final day does come I wanna be ready
I want to ride that white horse, oh steady
Tomorrow is not promised and neither is today
Start preparing like it’s your last day
2008 should begin a new start
Lives come to Christ, change people hearts
I love my family, friends and enemies no doubt about that
If I ever hurt you I want to say I’m sorry while I have the chance

*Why Me*

I can be bitchy at times

Yet you don’t care

I can shout, hit, and call you names

Yet you embrace me and want to give me your last name

I can be cruel, brutal, and mean

Yet you see me as a Queen

I start fights and hit you in that spot

To lay your hands on me you will not

Why me, I neglect you on certain days

Yet you tell me you love me and it’s not a phase

I ignore your phone calls and messages

Yet you find ways to see me

How can this be with all the hurtful things I do

To get attention I nag the hell out of you

Yet you kiss me and call me your boo

What do you want from me? I’m giving you all my flaws

Yet you ignore them and call me your all

You’re not like most guys

That comes by surprise

Never thinking with your second brain

You have me on this ecstasy train

I want to fight you away

Yet you call me baby

I gave up on finding Mr. Right Yet here you are

Can this be true, can it be real?

I’mma stick it out and see how I feel

*1 Hour, 45 Minutes, and 20 Seconds*

My name is Latonya Jackson and I am 17 years old. I was born and raised here in Atlanta, Georgia. I am in the full stages of AIDS. I contracted HIV 3 years ago at the age of 14. I am writing this because the doctors are about to pull the plug on my life in exactly 1 hour, 45 minutes, and 20 seconds. This is my story:

I am the youngest girl with 3 brothers. So not only am I spoiled, but I am also ROTTEN. Living in the ATL has been a blast. The people in my neighborhood are always getting in trouble. Whether it is from the cops or drug dealers, I don't know who is around the most. My friends and I are real close. It's 5 of us deep and we all grew up together. I am the ringleader of course because that's what I do. My clique includes Keisha, Rakia, Sparkle, and Shareefa.

My mom married my dad who is a trifling, good-for-nothing man. Every time he walks in the room, or I smell his cologne, I want to hurl. You probably thinking I am wrong for feeling this way but let me explain my feelings. This one day the age of thirteen (my birthday) I was so excited. My mom told me we were going to Hawaii for a family trip and to spend my birthday there. My mom bought me the finest clothes and I was really "ballin." My mom makes an announcement that her job called and she couldn't come along. So the trip included my 3 brothers, my dad, and I. I am excited because I can't wait to show off my new bikini. I finally got some hips and some breast, so I doved into the water as soon as we arrived. After I finish swimming and meeting new people, I head back to the hotel. My dad informs me that my brothers went to the arcade. I toke a shower and started getting comfortable. While watching TV with my dad, a hotline commercial comes on. After it finishes my dad starts to act strange. He sits closer to me and puts his hand on my knee. He tells me how pretty I am and how I've grown so nicely. I kindly thank him and feeling uncomfortable, I get up. He shoves me back onto the couch and unzips his pant zipper. I ask, "What are you doing?" He replies, "Hush, just go with it." And begins to cover my mouth. He unzips my zipper to my shorts and climbs on top of me. I begin to yell but the towel wrapped around my mouth is preventing any sounds coming out. After fighting with him I feel a hard thing insert my private area. I later found out that it was his penis. I was screaming out so much in pain that I passed out. I awake moments later and see blood around my private area.

My flesh and blood father took my innocence and awakened something in me. My dad told me "if you say anything to your mom or anyone else, I will kill you!" When my brothers came back, I ran into my room and cried myself to sleep. I rarely came out of my room and avoided any contact with my dad. Seeing my mom was the happiest feeling I've ever felt. I've caught on to my dad's routine. When no one is around he treats me like he did on the couch. I try my hardest to stay with someone. Late at night, I try to act a sleep so he won't touch me, and sometimes it works.

In my neighborhood, my friends and I are the dime pieces. Every girl want to be like us, and all they guys want us, or a chick like us. My girl Keshia is very sexually active. She lost her virginity to her dad at the age of 10. Ever since, she is always beneath or on top of some guy. One time she had two guys with her. My friend lost her virginity to the biggest drug dealer. She was 13 and he was 16. My friend Sparkle is more conservative. Don't get me wrong, she is sexually active too, but she wants a real relationship with her man. She is such a lame! Now my girl Shareefa is a trip. She is so out there that no girl can keep up with her. As you can see, all of us are sexually active and loving it.

In a way I guess I am glad my dad opened up this door in my life on having sex. Sex is enjoyable and amazing. My total number of guys I had sex with is 45. I'm trying to beat my girls. I'm in the lead but they are catching up fast. I done it all, 3-somes, 4-somes, anything you can think of, I did it. I invented it.

I met my current boyfriend in my neighborhood. He is the type of guy that all the girls want. He always has money and is respected by everyone. He is a smooth talker also. When I first saw him and had relations with him, I thought it would be just a one time thing. I didn't know I would fall in love with him. We've been dating for some time now and things are going great. I get everything I want and that's how I like it.

My next door neighbor had to move because they were crack heads and behind in bills. The new neighbor is my wors nightmare. The lady that moved in is the reason I am dying now. She is around 23 or so and is just as promiscuous as I am. She's a money grabber and hopped on my man the minute she saw him. He was trying to juggle us both and didn't think he would get caught. Well he did, or shall I say we all did!

While I was in the room listening to CHRIS BROWN, I heard my brothers telling me to pick up the phone. I picked up and said "Hello!" The person on the other side said "This is Ricky, come over now!" He could have said PLEASE but what do I care. When I arrived, his door was ajar and I easily went in. He is mad! At this point he is sweating and catching attitudes. I tried to calm him down, and tell him everything will be okay. He then started acting like someone I was uncomfortable with (my dad). He then shoves me on the bed and holds me still. I'm looking confused and scared at the same time. He says, "Do not say anything!" and covers my mouth. We begin to have sex but not like we usually do. He is controlling the situation and for the first time he starts to hurt me.
This took me back to my birthday trip in Hawaii. Ironically enough, it's my 14th birthday as well. I begin to cry harder and harder. After he is finished, he removes his hands from my mouth. I wipe my eyes and ask, "what was that for???" he tells me that hoe that lives by me gave him HIV!!! "If I'm going to die, then so are you!" The man I thought I loved and loved me back just killed me. He didn't literally put a gun to my head, but he might as well. Now I had to cope with my life realizing I will never become an adult. I will never get married and have children. I will never watch my children graduate. I will never graduate from high school, and I will never experience the feeling of coming home from work being tired. If I had to live my life over, I probably wouldn't because I will still have my dad to rape me. I blame you Joshua Alton Jackson. I hope you are reading this because you messed up my life.

Now I have exactly 10 minutes. I felt so much pain to the time I was with my dad til now on my dying bed. AIDS is nothing to play with or take lightly. It has made me skinner than I am usually. My face looks disoriented. I don't recognize myself anymore.

"Excuse me m'am, can I have some water?"...................."Thank You!" They just informed me I have 10 seconds. I want to say I love you mom and to my girls, you keep on and next you will be where I am.
Shall we count down together................5,4,3,2...............Goodby_____