*I Need Closure*

This is to MY FIRST LOVE

The one that I gave my heart to and in return got bit by the devil’s bug

This is not to put your business out there or to tear you down

You did that to me too many times, I can’t see you frown

Hopefully after this I get the closure that I need

Because right now I’m going in circles like a pit-bull ready to feed

Our time together was not a bad thing

We shared moments, firsts, and everything in between

Laughter, cries everything that comes with it

But we had to say goodbye and it’s hard to stick to it

I LOVE YOU unconditionally don’t worry about that

We did some messed up things to each other and that’s a fact

What happened in DC hurts me to this day

“What happens in DC stays in DC” is what some says

We both know that the statement is a lie

What’s done in the dark MUST come bright

You tore me up about that and you were in the right

Until I found out 3 MONTHS LATER that what I began you already start

That’s some grimy behind stuff right there; look at me trying not to cuss

To think I can confide in a friend to later find out HE PUT YOU UP TO THIS, cuz

When you’re dealing with a person that only looks out for themselves

You’re bound to have misery, troubles, and demons looking like elves

But that is why you live, learn, and progress

But why did I have to have this BIG test?

Things were going fine until I found out you had another after she

Well I got my revenge and I got it TIMES THREE

But tit for tat, an eye for an eye does not ease the pain

It marinates the sore for a little while until your words stain

You think all these thoughts about me and still have no clue

Well I’m not the same girl you met, CAN’T YOU TELL I GREW?

You feel that I lost my emotions; YOU think

I hide my tears under my REPETITIVE blinks

But I’m NO LONGER crying, I’m NO LONGER sighing

Because I know “THAT MAN” is out there coming

My outlook on guys is SOOOO much different then when we first met

Thanks to you I freaking hate guys and have no use for them until I NEED SOMETHING or get upset

Guys are like slobbering 4 legged dogs with the pink thing sticking out

They think to their advantage and disregard the feelings of a gentle woman without a doubt

They are only good for ONE thing and MOST can’t do that right

Some try and fail, some succeed out of spite

Don’t get me confused I WILL NEVER TURN GAY

Because no matter what I think about guys I LOVE them MORE than a queer any day

After this maybe we can truly be friends and let the past BE THE PAST

I just know that if we tried it again IT WON’T LAST

We been through a lot between the time we were together and til now

I reminisce and ask myself HOW?

To leave on this note and to tell you how I feel

I LOVE YOU “Kobe Jr.” I never stopped and WILL NEVER stop and that’s real.